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No Outrunning Alcoholism
Drinking/Drugging Tricks Don’t Work
I thought I was smart when I was drinking/drugging.
I knew how to pull off minor scams and stay one step ahead of trouble much of the time.
I thought I could outrun whatever was chasing me.
When it came to lying, I was an expert. I’d lie to you easily. More importantly and dangerously, I lied to myself 24/7.
I told myself I was OK when I knew I wasn’t. I’d tell myself that it was OK to drive even though I was seeing double. I’d tell myself that smoking 4 packs of cigarettes over the course of a long day/night of drinking was OK because I was still young.
And a big scam I played on myself and others was to switch up different circles of drinkers so that I wouldn’t be seen by the same people night after night.
This is a common ploy for drinkers during the social years of drinking before isolated drinking takes hold.
I was out every night getting completely wasted. But if I went to a certain hangout once or twice a week, and run into a few friends there who frequented the place, it would seem like it was “party night” for me. Unbeknownst to them, the next night I was drinking shots and snorting morphine at a small house party with a different group of friends, the…
